hello blogsphere…

I lost gazillion entries that I was planning to post here because my hard disk from my desktop was busted, so here I am, making my first entry after a long time.

 

I feel sad that my entries are now gone.  I felt like I lost a few parts of my life.  But…come to think about it, losing those entries means moving on with my life.  Those entries kasi were just full of rants and sadness and hurt and pain and hatred and all things negative because of one person who, for sometime, became a part of me.

 

Anyways, I’m trying my very best to move on and be happy with the life I have.  I just remind myself that I survived 25 years of my life without that person, so living life the way I used to would be easy.

 

Also, I was able to prove that when you are at the lowest point of your life, something will come up that will bring back the smile you lost.  In my case, the something was SOMEONE.

 

That someone told me that I weighed more now…but I need not worry naman daw because I’m more beautiful now than the last time he saw me (aaaawwww…ang sweet talaga niya).

 

That someone said he’s ready naman daw siya to receive punches from me anytime na bad trip ako sa mundo.

 

And that someone used this line: 

 

“Ang saya-saya ko dahil nakita kita ulit.  Miss na kita eh.  Kung akin ka lang, hindi ko problema ang gumising araw-araw kasi alam kong tuwing gigising ako eh katabi kita.”

getting insane over this song

you don’t remember me but i remember you
i lie awake and try so hard not to think of you
but who can decide what they dream?
and dream i do…i believe in you
i’ll give up everything just to find you
i have to be with you to live to breathe
you’re taking over me

have you forgotten all i know
and all we had?
you saw me mourning my love for you
and touched my hand
i knew you loved me then

i believe in you
i’ll give up everything just to find you
i have to be with you to live to breathe
you’re taking over me

i look in the mirror and see your face
if i look deep enough
so many things inside that are just like you are taking over

i believe in you
i’ll give up everything just to find you
i have to be with you to live to breathe
you’re taking over me

i believe in you
i’ll give up everything just to find you
i have to be with you to live to breathe
you’re taking over me

Taking over me
Your Taking Over Me
Taking over me
Taking over me

 

For you…

I’m so tired of being here
Suppressed by all my childish fears
And if you have to leave
I wish that you would just leave
‘Cause your presence still lingers here
And it won’t leave me alone

These wounds won’t seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There’s just too much that time cannot erase

[Chorus:]
When you cried I’d wipe away all of your tears
When you’d scream I’d fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have
All of me

You used to captivate me
By your resonating light
Now I’m bound by the life you left behind
Your face it haunts
My once pleasant dreams
Your voice it chased away
All the sanity in me

These wounds won’t seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There’s just too much that time cannot erase

[Chorus]

I’ve tried so hard to tell myself that you’re gone
But though you’re still with me
I’ve been alone all along

[Chorus]

I’m tired…

…of you.

for two of my “FRIENDS”

PAIN IN MY HEART by Second Wind

Here i am alone in this empty room
And let my mind just fly you to the end
Thoughts of you still linger in my memory
Wondering why my life is not that fair
I could still recall
Those memories of you
The joy and all your laughter
The love thast we’ve been through
Oh, i can’t believe you’re gone
Oh, no

Talkin’ to myself for no reasons i could find
Findin’ out why everything went wrong
Tears falling down my cheeks that
I’ve been trying to hold
It doesn’t know if i could still go on
I wanted you to stay
The tears begin to show
You said you cared for me
But then you had to go
And now i know you’re gone

But i don’t want to remember
The things (we used to do/that we’ve been
Through)
And all the things that remind me of you
I don’t want to hear the songs
The songs we used to sing
‘coz i don’t wanna feel the pain in my heart

I just can’t believe you’re gone

No, no…
I don’t wanna feel
Yeah, i don’t wanna feel the pain in my heart
I don’t wanna feel, don’t know what went wrong
Oohh…

If only I can hug you two and just take away all the pain and hurt you are feeling so you would feel better, siguro ginawa ko na…even though I don’t know you personally, I consider you two as my friends, and I don’t want seeing and/or hearing that you are hurting.  I’m praying for you…take care always…

Tanginang Linya…Pamatay!

IF YOU’RE GOING TO DO SOMETHING TONIGHT, ISIPIN MO AKO HA…

Untitled…

I miss you.  Really.  So much.

I’m at the brink of breaking down again because I so badly want to hear your voice, and even more badly want to be just next to you.

You may think I don’t give a damn on what happens to you everyday, but wherever I am, whatever I do, every single thing that happens to makes my mind drift to where you are.

When the phone rings, I answer it with whole excitement, because I always think that it’s you who’s calling…

When I type words, I always imagine that we’re chatting online…

When I have my meal, I always worry:  “Tangina, kumain na kaya si _________??”

Basta, kahit anong ginagawa ko, your memory is just there, lurking in the shadows, waiting to pounce on me when I least expect it.

Hay….shet!  I really miss you…

And I want to be with you…

I miss you…

Really…sobra…

I can’t even explain why I do or how much…

pero ang alam ko lang…

my LSS at the moment…

KAILANGAN KO PO NG MGA OPINYON NINYO…PLEASE PO!

Gusto ko lang po malaman kung ano ang gagawin ninyo kung sakaling malaman ninyong ang kapatid ninyo eh nagda-drugs.

(Wag po mag-alala, hindi po kapatid ko yun…ogag yun minsan pero takot sa drugs yon!)

Please please please, kailangan ko po talaga ng opinions ninyo…